wat akaun fb bru

hm..yup..aku wat akaun fbbru....tp akaun ni aku ngn iqbal punya.so..22 bole bukak....sbnrnya aku dah malas nk berfacebook...skung ni law aku bukaka fb notification aku mesti kurang dri 5.heheeh...aku dah malas..sgt malas...aku lebih ska tngok page org..kiramc stalker la kn..tp aku x koen papa..jarang sgt aku komen.sbb???aku malas..lgpown..law komen kang jdbnda len plak....hmm.so lebih bek..tngok ja kn..hehehe....sbnrnya aku x taw nk tulis a nih....hmm..pasal family?parent???x pyh la...wat aku sakit ati ja...mama dah bpe ari x blikdia kta dia nk keje kt sbrang...abah lak.x taw la..x contact pa pown.aku just contact adik2 aku ja...ntah la....really complicated....mok lak...bru ni gado lg..tp da ok dah.mcm ngn pa lg..he's funny..hehehe....irritating.annoiying...discusting...hahaha.....but he still the one that i love...i love u IQBAL...

confius.....emotional.....

saya confius.....confius ngn apa y ada dlm otak saya.....saya tahu saya cinta dia.....tapi kenapa saya slalu wat dia ssh??apa y x cukup lg??saya tahu dia perlukan saya...tapi saya slalu fikir y dia x perlukan saya...saya ni membosankan..merimaskan....hmmm.....k...x phm ek???mcm ni la...i use to be an independent gurl.....i can survive alone.....sometime i love to be alone.....but sometime i dont......lagi la x phm kn???konfius.....kdg2 bnda2 y kecik y dia wat...contohnya....kmi nk kua tp dia dok sibok men game...y sy dok tunggu dia...so bila jd cm tu...sya dah mula angin...tu sikit...hehehe....baran kn saya???ehehehe....dan sometime...dia ckp perangai sya y buruk di depan family dia...dlm nada melawak la...saya geram...saya simpan dlm hati....tambah sikit lg...lpas tu dlm keta ada satu perkara yang terjadi antara kmi...even bnda tu sebesar zarah sekali pown...tu dah cukup tok buat mood sya spoil.....heheeh....tapi....kalau sya wat bnda y sma kt dia...dia x marah pown...cool ja....haaaaaaaaa..........tu y saya x puas ati...knapa dia cool ja...knpa saya x mcm tu....???hmm....???saya nk mcm tu..cool ja.......x mao cepat marah...i have to learn to control my anger....for our sake....sbb bila saya angin x cun...dia pown mesti x best kn....dan law ari2 saya mcm tu ...x ka satu hari nanti dia akn tinggal kn saya???waktu tu baru la saya nk menjerit-jerit mcm org gila kn???hehhe....and..let me tell u a secret...i never do this to any men accept him....hehe..is that mean i really love him or i'm being selfish???seriously confius....
EMOTIONAL....pown berpunca dri confius gak.....ntah apa2..x da papa jd pown kdg2 aku leh nangis.....k...abis pasal aku dan dia....skung pasal my family....y bermasalah x habis2......mak aku dah slamat....dia ada ngn kmi skung.....first time aku jmpa dia ari tu....she want to touch me tp aku elak....aku x taw....aku x blh la...aku kta kt dia...plan2...aku taw dia kecewa tp aku btol2 x bleh....esoknya...aku bercakap dengan dia...tp kmi bergadoh....dia masih keras kepala...x mao mengalah...dan paling aku x ska dia tipu....aku nangis...esok lg...kmi dah ok da sket....lina ngn dia plan nk cari rumah....nk dok skali..aku ok je....mayb ni y terbek..kmi adik-bradik bole berkumpul lg....smlm...aku dah dpt rasa kasih syg dia smula....dia x wat papa....tp aku dpt rasa y mak aku dah kembali....aku suka sgt ada prasaan mcm ni...sbb aku taw aku syg mak aku...tp aku kna ngn ayah aku plak...dia marah aku ngn lina x blik rya aji...seyes aku x da wet..lina pown x blik....aku bkn nk kurang ajaq ngn dia tp dia kna phm mcm mna kmi phm dia....aku pown pelik gak npa dia dok marah sgt....rupanya dia sakit ati kmi dok ngn mama....hmmm....x brubah lg org tua tu....2 ari bln ni aku daftar poli..aku lega l.i aku dah abis...tp nk msk kelas blik....bkn la satu y menggembirakan tok aku....aku mungkin akn jd bdk y berjalan keseorangan...mkn sorng...tp x taw la..aku x nk judge dorng lg....nisa mesti akn kwn ngn aku tp dia mesti ada ngn kwn2 y len...dan aku x nk dia pilih antara aku ngn dorng...so better aku ja dok sorng2....aiman pown x da.....hmm....x pa la..tu bkn hal y besar....aku kna blaja struggle sket sem ni..pointer aku jth lg sem lepas....lg pown mok x da thn dpn..so aku leh lbh focus pd plajaran..mayb bila aku sibuk nanti aku akn lebih x fikirkn dia..dan x gado ngn dia....

guilty......

tu y aku rasa skung nih.........guilty to my mom....mak aku dah blik malaysia.....glad she arrive here safely...but......bnda y sama jd blik....mama...grah x tau apa dlm kpala otak mama...apa y mama nk dlm hidup mama....tp grah dah law bole x nk pikir dah pasal mama atau abah..apa y pnting ialah adik2 grah....so....grah akn pntingkn adik2...dri segala-galanya...termasuk mama....berdosa ka grah wat cm tuh???grah x nk adik2 grah rosak....dan slalu terima kejutan mcm y grah trima.....they so young u know???kesian kt depa mama...dan org slalu ckp..kasih ibu membawa ke syurga....yes...grah x nafikan....kasih mama mmg akn bawa kmi ke syurga....tp dlm keadaan mcm nih....grah x taw apa y patot grah buat...grah pernah bg mama peluang skali tp mama hancurkn.....knpa kmi hanya perlu terima kesalahan y mama dan abah buat??kmi x berhak hidup dgn tenang ka mama???grah x taw mcm mna keadaan mama skung.....i wish u in safe hand...i wish nobody gonna hurt u....and i really wish u gonna think wut is right for u....make a decision...a real decision....for u...for us....we do love u.....bnda y jadi slalu wat grah rasa bersalah.....mcm dlu mama halau grah...grah fikir..mcm mna aku nk hidup tanpa restu seorng ibu....???dan grah dah dpt blasnnya...blasn y beri kesan kt grah sepanjang hidop....apa y grah nk...mama jgn letakkkn kesalahan dbahu kmi....kmi sgt2 nk tlg mama tp mama x tlg dri mma...dan slagi mama masih berperangai mcm nih...sampai bila2 pown masalah mama x kn selesai....satu lg...percaya lah pd Tuhan ma....mama pernah ajar grah kn???mama beri grah semangat tok hidop....skung grah tlg mama plak....grah x da wang ringgit tp grah ada kasih syg....grah x nk tngok mama tros mcm ni....brubah la mama....kembali pd kmi....insyaallah...semuanya akn slamat dan kembali mcm dlu blik......

2....3....hari.......

2...3....hari...hmmm.....2 3 hari ni..aku sgt penat....sah start keje part time.....umah pown mlm ni nk angkt brg dah...dn 2 3 ari ni aku mcm slalu gado ngn iqbal.....huh!!....heheh.....mcm besa kmi gado sbb bnda y remeh temeh.....aku ni mmg mood mcm taik sket....tngah aku ok..ok la...tp law silap sket..dan bnda tu aku ambk serious..mmg serrr la....hmmm..dan org y pling bijak wat aku marah ialah x len x bkn Iqbal Fikri....hahaha...kdg2 tu.....dia x wat apa pown....x ckp pa pown....dia ckp cm besa ja...tp x taw la aku punya marah ngn meluat tu..mcm dia wat salah gila2...hahahah......dan aku sgt bertuah sbb dia phm aku..even aku kta nk pts la..nk jd kwn la..dia taw aku cm na....dia still cinta aku.....dan aku mkn hari mkn cintakn dia.....hari2 berlalu.....dan kmi still gado...tp still cinta...dan still sayang....dan aku sgt suka peluk dia..ops!....hahaha....tp bkn peluk nafsu taw..y tu gatai punya.....aku ska peluk dia dri blakang.....blakang dia panas.....aku sgt ska....sgt slesa....hmmmmm...nyaman.......dan waktu tu aku sgt cinta dia.....aku rasa cm nk salurkn cinta aku kt dia melalui pelukan tuh...ceh.......ayat....hahaha...tp tu la y aku rasa.....dan aku x nk hilang peluang tok peluk dia lg....oh gosh....i'm really in love with him..somebody pls help me.......

You still the one..........

You're Still The One

When I first saw you, I saw love
And the first time you touched me, I felt love
And after all this time, you're still the one I love



Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong


(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life

(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night


Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to

You're still the one I want for life


(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night
You're still the one

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life

(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby